Do you ever just play a horrible scenario in your head again and again? I am sure you do. If you dont, cheers, you did fine, you saved yourself from a lot of headache. But I have a theorie it happens with a reason, I mean it can't be possible that numerous people just create problems for themselves. Everything has a reason.
Take trust. Huge word. Hard to earn, could be lost in seconds, may not be regained ever. But what really sucks is when you really want to trust someone, you are just tired of losing people because they keep on losing your trust. You will lower your expectations, trust me,, and think of the worst right away. How is that?
Well it is sad, and it keeps me awake many times. Imagining what will happen, how people going to betray my trust again. And I don't make up unrealistic situations in my head, I am clever enough to base my imagination on reality. I can get really sad by the fact that people are selfish, me included, and we would do anything to be in the best position, to have benefits, to just survive.
Maybe there is no trust in this world anymore. I mean you can tell every little dirty secrets of yours to someone and they can still surprise you with their actions.
I, for example, thought if I tell everything it will help me and others to get to know me. Sometimes it doesn't matter at all. In certain situations they forget what you sad, how hard it is for you, they will do what they like, what they want. That is just how it is.
